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    Jun182012

    Jinx

    "Worrying is like a rocking chair, it gives you something to do, but it gets you nowhere."  ~Glenn Turner

     

    I am ridiculously superstitious. I’m the person who picks up pennies that are heads up, I make a wish on any eyelash that falls out and the first star I see at night. I honestly believe that if I send out a request for good vibes then the universe will hear it (see it?) (I dunno) and then the bad or good thing will be OK. Lately I have had an issue with feeling jinxed. If I give even a smidgen of a detail to a confidant then whatever it is that I want will be jinxed. I give up hope thinking that I have ruined it all - whatever it is - by even mentioning the great big thing that I hope for. Isn’t that sad? Or, better yet, pathetic? Possibly adding ‘very’ to that pathetic given that I am a damn near 30 year old woman who thinks that good things happen with a simple word from my lips to God’s - or whatever deity’s or higher power’s - ear. I managed to keep something to myself for three whole days before I burst at the seams. I mean, I had to tell someone. When I finally mentioned it to my mother this morning, I did so with a big sigh. “Now it’s not going to happen”.

    “You’re like me. You think you’re jinxed and you’ve ruined it. You haven’t”, she said.

    But I feel nervous, especially given the last several months of my life. The perpetually unbloggable.

    Honestly, I don’t feel like I’m full of bad luck but more resigned to my fate. I want something so bad that I can taste it but the past is dictating my present. Perhaps I’m jinxed forever? I don’t know. I could just really use some good luck. I’m hanging by a thread over here.

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    Reader Comments (3)

    Funny, I'm learning kind of the opposite thing lately. I find I have to say what I want out loud to someone else to get it. I've been so afraid to ask for what I want, what I really want, that I let a lot of opportunities pass me by. So now I'm trying to say even the little things to make them happen. I don't know if it's a matter of my superstition or just clearer focus.

    June 18, 2012 | Unregistered CommenterSuebob

    Funny. I don't remember writing this ;) BUT I COULD HAVE!! I so feel you. When I'm scared to fly, I hate to say it until after, because everyone is always all "YOU'LL BE FINE!" (UGH, JINX!) I am like this with everything.

    I'm sending you good luck (of the non-jinx variety), and reminding you that your fate isn't always an asshole.

    LOVE TO YOU!!

    xo

    June 18, 2012 | Unregistered CommenterAllison Zapata

    I'm not superstitious, but I once wished upon a shooting star and got exactly what I wished for... for about 6 weeks, and then it all disappeared. Good vibes are only temporary. The things that last are the ones you make happen.

    June 23, 2012 | Unregistered CommenterSarah A.

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